I have been away for a long time as far as actually writing. For now though I am back.
In the past year I look at how my life has changed.
1) I am no longer a middle 20s girl waiting for the phone to ring to just hear his voice. Used to that thought would strike my stomach and heart to the point it would almost paralyze me. But I realize that if a man wants to walk away from to let them. And I don't need some stupid, worthless idiot from McCalla telling me what to do especially since he is still attached to his my by the nipple and umbilical cord.
2)Another thing I have learned beware of guys that like Bessemer. The water there turns guys into complete disbelieving assholes. And spending time with these people will lower your IQ. Trust me. I know.
3) As much as I try to fight it I can't help but to love the finer things in life. I love shoes that could be a down payment on a car. Food that could be a week's worth of rent. I'm sorry I have the money, you scoff at what I spend. I still give to charity. I don't see you putting $4,000 to St. Jude's and several other charities I see you going to buy crap for a car that still looks like crap when you get extra money so before you dis me watch your step. I dis back and I am not nice.
4) I know my child should be on Toddlers and Tiaras. But that's ok. Unless you've heard my whole pageant story don't judge on me that either. Back up you don't have to live with her I do. I am not having a child that wallows in self pity. I have one that boasts a broad ego and smiles all the time instead of thinking dark demonic things.
5) I don't give a damn if you think I am snob. The way I see I have more confidence than you do then. Just saying.
6) I do love everything my children do. Edward's artwork means the world to me. When Bella gets a tune right on the piano I leap up from whatever I am doing and go congratulate her.
7) I spend a ton of time with my family. We live beside each other. And we travel together. We are best friends.
8) I love traveling and having a busy schedule. I never hear the words out of my children's mouths that they are bored.
9) No I don't clean the house that you see is sparkling clean. I do have a maid. Does she live with me? No but she has specific instructions.
10) Does my disease show on the outside? No. Before all you people start judging on the fact that I have disability tag. Lets see you deal with Crohn's then we will talk. To the point where you can't walk because you stomach is cramping and your ass feels like it is on fire for 4 hours straight. And you have no idea when that feeling will strike. Back up. And for your info I don't always park in the handicap space so get over it the few times that I do.
11) I realized that I don't need people that are going to judge me on my life and actually try to bring me down. I don't need you and its apparent you don't want me around so once again back up and go somewhere else.
12) I have a man that loves me. Respects me. Spoils me. I stay with him. As long as he wants me. And he waited for 3 years to be with me. So done deal.
I feel better. :)
