Memories Part II

I left off at the time where everything was going crazy. Baby Boo started acting unlike herself she was scared to leave her house and to say much of anything. And I got really pissed because she shut everyone else and she became very dark. She was shielding herself from everything she once loved. I was struggling myself I was helping dad and he was hardly coming to work anymore. He would come in and be completely high. I was working myself up to you 2 packs of cigarettes a day at this time.

Hell broke loose in January 2008, right after Mack was born. Ian took it too far and Ridge finally left him. She had went through hell in such a short time and her body could barely take anything more. What she did at the end shows just how much she willing to keep everyone happy. I cannot begin to act like I'm the abuser when that person literally has beat me minutes before that telling me to act that way. And people want to know why I hate Magan. Well here is why: Ian invited her to his prom and she accepted. And went to live with dad and Dylon. Dylon was now living with dad and I was on my own. Dad wasn't much better to her than Ian. The smallest thing thing and she was whipped hard. I got so mad at that but I knew that dad would do the same to me.

I was frantically trying to find a job. I started going out night to different bars. I walked in one that seemed slightly familiar while upstairs but when I got to the actual bar was like nothing I've ever seen. Well except for Coyote Ugly. I remember the smells of that night. Yeast, cigarette smoke, Hypnose perfume, sweat, and coffee. I went right for the live band who were covering "Cold" by Crossfade. I was rooted to the spot by the guitarist. I liked that song but there was something about them playing it made it seem flawless. The electric guitarist did his solo without a hitch and then I looked up into the face of someone from my past.

When his eyes met mine his eyes started laughing and he smiled the rest of the song. He literally jumped off the stage afterwards and came up to me. He was much older now of course so was I. It had been over ten years since the first time we seen each other but yet when we walked over to the bar he smacked my butt and started laughing. I couldn't help but laugh. I was finally introduced formally as an equal to Luke Snider, the same boy that took ballet. So after a couple of rounds we got to dancing and I really don't remember the next month. I drank to forget the pain of my past, what dad was doing, what was happening to Ridge.... I drank everything away and it cost me dearly. I ended up pregnant.

Not just normal pregnant either. Triplets. My body wasn't ready for it either. I rarely heard from Baby Boo but when I finally did in July 2008 when the triplets came very early. They almost didn't make it and I barely did as well. A lot people think it was because during part of my pregnancy I smoked and barely ate is why they came so earlier. This is the honest that hurts me to admit. Luke had a lot to do with them being premature. He was just like he is now, all about sex and himself. Bella was first, Edward was next, and then came Jake. I loved seeing them together in my arms but I was only able to stay with Luke until April 2009 then I had to leave.

When I left I was planning on returning to get the children but Luke wouldn't let me. By July 2009 I had opened up my own parlor and bar. I shared the bar but I defiantly got more people to arrive.

And now I sit here in the hospital with a disease and only one child. And another annulment behind me.

But I am hopelessly, passionately, unconditionally, genuinely. and sacrificially in love now with Tommy Ray.